Book of many colors

Wrote a chapter
Now doing a revision
Revising myself
aligning with a vision

Percision and accuracy
A blank page
Lyrics without a pen
Spoken word from within

The heart write letters
beating rythms in sync
rhymes too sketchy for ink
Don't blink in a frenzy

Tell how u feel
Enjoy this melody
It only comes once
jive till midnight

Dance till day light
Turning pages of life
Dance till moonlight
Tell Rebbie to fight

The book of many colors
Aren't jealous jealous
I said book of many colors
not jealous jealous

Take her by the hand
Turning pages again
It only comes once
Tell the best friend

But the book of many colors
Aren't jealous jealous
The book of many colors
Is not ready ready

Pick a chapter
Tear the page
Bind it to the spine

Numbers come
numbers go
But the book of many colors
Is not jealous no mo

The Prelude (April 2, 2018)

Bring forth the contract

Let me inspect think and thin

I dotted my I's and crossed my T's

when I signed the line I signed the death of me

Like a dog chained to a heater

The heat is on and it's summer time

A slow and uncessary death

My last name brings me shame

My household in flames 

behind the wheel I smile

Fresh air heaven sent

A new perspective radical sentiment

The chain around my neck

Couldn't get any hotter 

Can death be FedExed?

At least till death do us apart

I wish to live a long life

I wish to smile

I wish to have family 

I wish all the while

It's the little hope I have

Self laden mortality 

Sad seepin reality 

Everyday a buffet of misery 

Men they say "keep your wife happy"

A happy wife is a happy life

So true to the wife who is happy

For no price and though toil can a man bring her to this state

A happy wife is a happy life

But what about the mad wife

No one mentions her...?

Ah her husband never lived to tell

He died early...awe rough life

Let his death speaks of the misery

Though I suppose maybe he's finally happy?Who knows?

Seems like death rewarded him

Till she joins him in heaven too

You'll see it on his face

When she comes knocking on them stoney gates

Please don't find my wife in the book of life

The man mumurs and pleads

Remembering his life his wish not for eternity

Though his heart condemns him 

His mind tells him death has done them apart 

Fella wants a fresh start in a new life

Unfortunately for him she's still his wife.

Now he dies again this time in his soul

Noe imagine killing a soul

The heart still beats but the feelings are gone

From life to existence merely no joy

Like a dog chained to a heater 

The time drags on spoiling the air

Poor dog gasping for air

Panting and sweating he howls

Before folding his arms and bowing his head

Preparing for the long sleep ahead

Collector Jen

Collector Jen 

Ohh nooo, ohh no

It's 8 again

I dread the ring tone

It's collector Jen

When she calls 

the conversation's well scripted

"who am I speaking with

any objections to the call?

Just to let you know,

I'm recording it all.

and in case your wonderin'

My name is collector Jen

"This is an attempt to collect a debt"

it's not personal it's how I earn my check

"Your account is several payments due

we accept debit, check, and money orders too!"

"Oh and if you hang up

we'll keep on calling you!

You can run but you can't hide

we know your family"

Patiently I waited for her to end her Verbiage

Don't like to admit it I had been baited 

when the local number flashed my screen

I answered with the green

Had I known it was collector Jen

my phone would have ringed

let her call again

it doesn't matter to me

She thinks a voicemail concise and sweet

would entice me to use the re-dial feat

but I'm a winner, a master player

I know this game, I've played before

I know how it goes

"Sir, can you at least make a partial payment?"

"No!......"

"Well can't you borrow from someone you know?"

"Your...your name is Jen right?.."

"Right!"

"Well I uh..I think we've gotten well acquianted

it's almost like we know each other...

I want to say Jen, I'm broke can you lend a hand?

But say no more! You know my case!"

You see my answer to that is if ya'

gonna ask me to borrow from family, friends, or someone else

just to rob Peter to pay Paul...you know it goes

well then let's start with you

Can you fund me? GoFundme? Western Union me?

Naw naw, see I knew you were too stingy

Ahh I see it's cause it's me, you don't know me enough

Right? So why do you think it's fair

To ask a silly question like that?

Oh you get paid? I do too...

But I have bills you know...

those things that come every month?

I'm sure you can relate...

like every pay date

why not wait?

I might be paying late

"We'll take you to court"

"Go right ahead, I'll take an unpaid

keep the hearing from being delayed

You know there is only one way this is gonna go"

"I cannot give what I don't have

"You're too invested

become uninterested"

(written 01/2/2017)

When We First Loved

When we first loved
I knew you'd be special
Your warm smile
And smiling embrace

When we first loved
I held your hand
Gave you comfort
Planted you by my side

A love hard to hide
A love so deep
Sought to make you my wife
Build us a future and long life

Tears led to forgiveness
Good times to tight bounds
Tell where else can I find such love
I've found a good thing

So much have I learned from you
And more have I sacrificed
I count it all joy
With you in my life

I'd be a fool not to cherish you
Even more foolish not to carry you
When you are weak run to me
When you are broken run to me

I'm here - let me heal the wounds
I'm here - let me kiss your broken heart
I'm here - forget past relationships
I'm here - I promise to esteem you

I don't mean to hurt you
Though I'm not perfect
Like a lump of clay
I'm being molded

There will be rough edges
And some wedges
Pieces to break off
the things deemed unnecessary

No relationship involves two perfect people
But where there is loyalty
There is hope
Where there is faithfulness

There is unity

Where there is unity
The love will stand
No force will be great enough
Nor powerful enough
To break this kind of love

To keep the love pure
We must remember the time
When we first loved
The first kiss

The first time we said
"I Love you!"
We must remember our hearts
And how they said
"I'll love you till the day I'm dead"

Let us build together
when others try to tear us apart
Let us cherish each other
Unlike so many in our generation

For the talk of love is cheap
But the acts of love is rich
Promises of a future a dream
But steps towards them a purpose

A man without a vision
Is a broken family in route
A man without love
Is a thief of a woman's joy

But on this envoy

Let us sail...
not towards broken promises
But to the land of fulfillment

The path is laid
The vision is clear
Let's work together
In this promising frontier

Sometimes I wonder

Sometimes I wonder
Sometimes I sing
But one thing is truth
Happiness is not in things

Sometimes I dream of fame
Glorious fortune
But then I'm reminded of the less fortunate
In this I've found my calling

Society told me how be happy
Through toys and joys
Through selfish ambition
And glamours recognition

Yet I was left unsatisfied

I found happiness deep inside
in my passion and in my pride
I found happiness in the smiles of others
I found happiness and the joy of others

It is then I learned the price of greatness
It cost nothing but requires everything
A life poured out not soaked in
What a shame shall it be

What a shame shall it be if I hit the grave
With fine diamonds and bling
Golden plaques and high laden degrees
Fancy jewelry and lamborghinis

What a shame it'll be I lived so empty
This poem isn't for you it's about me
I see the suffering of my fellow man
and want to lend a helping hand

In a society about me me me
I want to take and make it about we
That's you and me
I and you....

Society says I am most important
My heart says we are most important
Society says me first
My heart tells me family first

Is it a surprise divorce is on the rise?
70 percent?
They say marriage is obsolete
I say what they say is hear say malarkey

Did you stop ask the children of yesterday?
What did they say?
Broken homes, split Christmases
Sometimes Santa doesn't deliver gifts

I know a child who once said to Santa
"For Christmas give me mom and dad"
But court orders told him either mom or dad
Every year the boy wished the same

Sometimes I wonder do people care
About the youth and their feelings
Have society lost its way?
Our love is in things

Shallow and dim
Things not alive
Things not able to love us
Things unable to confront us

I knew a man rich with plad
Much gold and thought he'd be glad
Such man died sick and confused
Ecclesiastes became his story

See I've stepped from the shadows
I understand the need
Society lacks love indeed
Society lacks true greatness

That is care for your fellow man
What good is it for me to die rich in a grave
But the lives of others stayed the same
What shame if I die lacking a family

What a shame if work replace my kids
And money replace rich memories
Money is here today gone tomorrow
But love lasts forever

Love is strong
Love will carry me on
Long after I die
If I love right I live on
I live strong

So sometimes I wonder
Is it my fate
Am I a stranger
Am I from another time

Sometimes I wonder is my heart too old
And my dreams to big
Sometimes I wonder why I dream at all
Cause when I look around

I'm encouraged not to dream at all

Maybe it be when enough kids have gone through
Society will change...
But I doubt it

Love of money is rampant

Love of money the root to all evil
The harsh reality
Yet u hope
A hundred years my words live on

I hope to speak for those ahead
The next families....
Sometimes I wonder will I ever have
What I never had

If I be lame

If I be lame let it be
because I was true to me
and let this always be
cause I'm focused

One thing I realize
I'm a trendmaker hit maker
hit breaker headliner
caretaker of this soul
People say I'm lame

But of them I think the same
Average never can be great
Nor conformity ever original
Like going analog to digital

T.V. babies act better
than pop artist
and rap mongols
who flash a life they never had

Like puppets on a stage
they far from solid state
I'm a rock I'm a jock
I'm a hipster building stock

Rising value every hour
Business swagger
childhood glamor
buying squares not my share

Like a broke man rich
But lost his stamina
broke men look rich
in front of them cameras

Throwing up signs
with their hands
cursing more yo'
broken morales

Sagging pants baggy shirts
grown men wearing skirts
turnt up every night
tricked into a foolish life

Young man where's your pride
our civil leaders died
ancestors fought
that you be taught

You say you want equality
justice, freedom, and to honor thee
move beyond a life of sub-quality
step out and be the talk

Young woman where you stand?
quit chasing that no good man
a man lacking quality
is a boy full of poverty

Don't wait to have a family
trusting that no good man you see
invest in yourself queen
then you shall know your king

Young man respect your boundaries
don't cross a man through jealousy
watch your tongue and be wise
the advice to save your life

Young woman check yourself
stop complaining about someone else
find a gym keep yourself trim
Let beauty be your share

Understand children what lame is
being turnt up till you out of shape
smoking blunts up till you outta cake
bringing children into broken homes

Breaking hearts cause the love is gone
being cold, ruthless and heartless
wanting to be feared

If this is what you've become
if this is what you conform to
If this is what you are born into
and glorify

Each and every day
that way of living will kiss my behind
if this be what you are my friend
then you my friend is mighty blind

Respect doesn't come by fear
nor are those that fear ever loyal
those of this breed
aren't meant to survive
This is why they barely scrapping by

If I be lame
Let me do so with greatness
Let me do so with passion
And much dedication

If I be lame let it be
because I set a standard
I set my own trend
one that others will follow

If I be lame let it be
I dare to go where no man has gone
and do what no man has done before
cause I'm courageous

If I be lame let it be said
I never conformed
I lived life free
I lived life as it was meant to be
I lived life being me

If this is what being lame is
for me it's the way to be
cause I'm always better than you
at being me while you fail at being you

Wisdom in Idioms Part 5

An iceberg is large
till it’s shadow is seen
A word heard
But what does it mean

There can be no understanding
till there is mutual consent
yet a word in any season
has always a specific reason

A surface is hollow
Even when only knee deep
but carry me to the root
and I’ll show you substance

Every rain brings new life
Like the day and night
even trials begin the path
that leads to every victory

Scurry around hither
till you are weary with fatigue
then grow old and retire the league
to lay with the wooden laced hickory

By then forever six feet deep
many gather round but all came to weep
this one night forever keeps
never again to wake from eternal sleep

Can this be for one to have no recollection
In the womb memory has no connection
Who knows their first memory ever had
eternity sits in our hearts affection

 
To think in death is to think at birth
Do we remember either time on earth?
Can we know the future or relive the past
Even what was only temporary last